Revelations & Resolutions
- Jan 2, 2017
- 3 min read
Honestly, the first half of 2016 was so chaotic that I'm astonished that I've made it to 2017. LOL jk, that was really dramatic but 2016 was an aggressive year. So lettuce pray that the best of our today's be the worst of our tomorrow's.
Anyway, I think it's important to jot down all the yay's and nay's of each year as it ends. As I formulated a mental list of everything, I broke it down to two concepts; what did I learn and what will teach. My revelations will be used to form my resolutions.
Revelation
I'm the type of person that plans in advance based on seasons. It's winter now, so I already have majority of spring planned out and I'm working on what I'm trying to complete during the summer.
Resolution
This year I thought I was going to be an Assistant Publicist at a music label or entertainment firm but I ended up moving to Rome to get my MA in Government and Politics. That transition solely happened because I stopped my cookie cutter planning and committed to the central idea of bettering myself. Whether it was getting a job in my field or returning to the classroom, I knew all my efforts were towards being a better version of Roxlind. I now find it far more important to have a central idea of what you want to accomplish than meticulously planning on how you'll get there. So the goal is to limit my habit of extensive planning since there will be plenty of paths to get to my destination.
~ideas motivate while plans support~
Revelation
I'm a very passive person when it comes to my emotions. I tend to believe that I have two emotions, passionate and sleepy. Very few people get to see me when my Taurus horns flare up or when I sob over a touching Google commercial. Majority of the time I display a very indifferent countenance. The problem I'm seeming to have is that not only do I hold it in, the times that I do express myself it literally comes out as word vomit leaving the listener overwhelmed/confused.
Resolution
I gotta embrace all the feels and speak on them accordingly. I've always kept a journal or will text myself to express my feelings but I don't do it enough. When I don't give myself a chance to register my feelings I often cannot articulate them because I'm processing as I speak. So in 2017 I'm going to have to text myself some more so I can engage in a more healthy discourse with others. 2016 was a great year for feelings, who knew it would take an international perspective after working for HRC during the tumultuous US Presidential election for me to bring out them all out? Yikes.
Revelation
I naturally enjoy giving advice or being a person who can add reason/logic to a complex situation (of course I can help you with your feelings while mine linger in a grey area). Probably because I grew up as an only child and I spend a lot of time developing my thoughts and perception so that I share them with anything that's breathing (nice save Rox)..
Resolution
Knowing that I'm someone who likes to engage in thought provoking conversation, I plan on taking my talents to a mentoring program for youths. Granted this is the plan for when I get back to the US, I want to use my time, treasure and talents to invest in the pickney and show them how my village raised me so I can do the same for them. Please feel free to suggest any organizations you know of or any advice you have based on your own experiences!
The children are the future and the future is now.
SO CHEERS TO THE NEW YEAR, LET'S MAKE THIS ONE OUR BEST ONE YET!
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